Hopefully you love surprises as well, because here is the first one:

I decided not to reach my goal of posting at least 50 times. The goal just doesn’t matter to me anymore. It did fulfill its purpose (my English really improved) but I’ll probably reduce my internet activities anyway.

Oh yeah, and that comes hand in hand with the second surprise:

I might stop posting on MuscularBrain.com. I might even sell it, depending on the offers I’ll get. So, if you’re interested in buying this website, you may contact me by writing a comment or by using the contact form.

Feels like some new kind of freedom cowboy! Anything’s possible now! Self development did a good job in creating a basis. Now I’m ready to go. Wherever my feet may take me.

The world’s waiting. Hello world! Show me what you got!

But sometimes I wanted to get rid of fear. Completely. The idea of being free of negative emotions made me curious. Being free of all those unnecessary emotions ordinary people do experience. Being somehow independent of my own fortune. I thought this might be the kind of perfection I was searching for. So I took some time to think about it.

At first I thought that it might work. I thought that the absence of worries and troubles might come naturally if you become wise.

But suddenly some questions came to my mind: Would I have to deny my roots to loose my fears? Would I even have to deny large parts of myself? Could my emotional state possibly be like a pendulum? So that I would have to take away all of its momentum to get rid of all negative emotions? This would also include getting rid of my personality…

Loosing my own personality would be a big sacrifice. Too big in my opinion. So I continued thinking.

Suppressing negative emotions can’t be the solution. But you can’t just cut off the unpleasant parts of your life and throw them away. It won’t work. They belong to you. And don’t negative feelings intensify life’s pleasant moments? I do think so. All of our emotions are a part of ourselves. And we better be careful with destroying parts of ourselves.

In my opinion, the only way to get rid of all fears, worries and troubles includes literally losing yourself. Mental suicide. Well, the whole concept of a self might be an illusion, but ain’t it a beautiful and exciting illusion?

Wisdom probably helps a lot to handle your emotions and I still want to learn to handle them better. There’s nothing wrong with that. But I accept my fears now.

I accept all of my negative feelings. I don’t want to get rid of them anymore. I want to live my life with all of its different facets. I want to see life in all its different colors, smell all its different odors, feel its different shapes. I want to experience sorrow and pain as well as pleasure and happiness.

Denying myself is not the answer. I love myself. I know that it makes me vulnerable but would you want to get rid of love only because you might risk getting hurt if you love?

So why do I think that 2010 will be a special year? It’s the number. Somehow there seems to be a symbolic value behind it that encourages people to tackle their problems and take a step towards reaching their goals. “2010″ just sounds like the perfect opportunity to me. I expect quite a lot of people to take that opportunity and do something about their lifes.

I got some plans myself. You know, I started doing all that self development stuff about half a year ago. And I already improved in many areas of my life. For me, 2010 will be the time to blow up my remaining limits. Setting me free.

It already begun. I’m adapting to the everyman sleep schedule right now. This means I’ll probably sleep only 4 hours a day from now on. Having all that extra time, I feel like it’s the perfect time to do some more changes.

Oh yeah, I’m looking forward towards all those pleasant moments of the new year that are yet to come. And you should do so as well. Start the year with a positive attitude to boost your success. And maintain that attitude.

Set the additional new year resolution of staying motivated all the year long. It’s not too late so set this resolution. Set it and let the year 2010 motivate you. The time has come to finally reach your goals.

I truly believe in the practival value of the techniques so I’ll reveal some of my own long-term goals now. I’ll prove the effectiveness of goal setting. You can follow my blog and watch the progress.

So here they are, my personal goals:

• Earning over 200€ per month with internet activities. (Deadline: 01.04.10): Don’t get that one wrong. Getting money is not the main purpose of this site. Acquiring and spreading knowledge plus understanding are the main purposes. I don’t need to set goals for that. My desire to understand is big enough to keep me motivated anyhow. (And the spreading would be too difficult to test.) But since I am an undergraduate, 200€ a month would almost be enough to finance my appartment, so I wouldn’t need to take an extra job. Besides, this is an example of splitting big chunks, I won’t stop when I earn 200€ in a month.
• Having submitted at least 50 posts to this blog. At least 27 posts need to be articles. (Deadline: 01.04.10): No spamming allowed. Articles must be at least 300 words long. 27 articles may sound like nothing much, but you have to keep in mind that studying mathematics can really be a full time job. I don’t know yet how much stress it will be, so I was kind of careful with this number. If it will be less stressful than I thought, I’ll probably update this goal.
• Having visible six pack abs. (Deadline: 01.04.10): I’m already in pretty good shape, but I never had visible six pack abs. That’s why this goal made it to the list.
• Passing all of my exams: That’s one of the few things that work without setting dates. I choosed it to remind me that my real occupation is being an undergraduate.

Now you know about my goals. Did you set yours yet? If you did, why not tell others about them too? It would increase your motivation in the same way as posting this very article increases mine.